Do Not Have A Predestined Relationship

I again defect was entered sadness and all look, why be not cannot sacrifice for me her self-respect, why am I good-tempered to hers cannot change her pay am I wrong really I think we are lot was used up really. Since this is unripe,do not have a predestined relationship, let everything follow wind! I had new girlfriend again later, the person that loves most in my heart admittedly or blame. Blame tell me she cannot begin new life, she cannot put down the feeling to me, she should resume marriage with me.
She is crying to beg what I excuse her to act wilfully, those who excuse her is stubborn, she has understood the sentiment to me truly, understood marital responsibility, she says she wants to save our feeling, redeem our marriage, she says she will be patient my defect, put down dignity for me, toward do everything but I perhaps cannot. I had too much distrust to her, I do not know this kind of distrust to need how long time just can be eliminated, perhaps be all one’s life, admittedly the life that I also am reluctant to leave associate with in the heart. Accept her afresh, I do not know how to face my colleague, my friend, my family, I do not want to make the mockery of others, become the pronoun of weak and incompetent.